I just had one of those days where every little thing fuels a fire that I can't extinguish. No matter how hard I fight it, or cry about it, or prepare myself for it...its right there, burning all the time, threatening me.  And I'm helpless to it. I could give in and let it ruin me, or I can keep fighting it and hope that someday it'll get easier to fight, not burn as hot, run out of kindling...hope for anything better than the raging firestorm it is now.

I could talk about how life is, but how is it really? I could pour out my soul and ramble on and on and end a very long blog by saying that "sometimes life is...." but whose life can be summed up, all the good and all the bad, in a single 
"sometimes life is...." cliche?  And who doesn't have these days...at least I can take comfort in that.

Oh, and thank you Anna Nalick...I will use them however I want to.

Deal!!! Deal!!! Deal!!!

When they offer you 200k for doing nothing but bearing the presence of Howie Mandell, TAKE THE DEAL.

Sheesh.

Currently Reading Angels & Demons, Special Illustrated Edition By Dan Brown see related

I have caught a sickness. Being in the highly contagious L.A. area must have done it, or perhaps it was the Orange County people that we hung out with all week...nonetheless, I diseased, disorientated, and downright chummy....with Starbucks coffee fever. What was once a nominal occurance has now turned into an everyday need for survival. I have to wonder if the kids in the drive through recognize my voice. What is sad is that I don't even get any of the froo-froo drinks that you would expect...I get regular coffee, with non-fat milk. Occasionally this week, I have walked on the wild side and enjoyed Sugar-free hazelnut syrup. I CAN'T STOP BUYING $2.00 coffee!!! I wake up in the morning and think "maybe I'll get coffee at QT today or even make some in the office", but then my car steers itself right into the clutches of the Starbucks drive-thru window. And the people there are so....cheery. Really, eerily happy. It must be the caffeine. I think they put secret ingredients in this stuff...

I had a really good time on vacation. I tried new things and really enjoyed myself...here is a list of things that I learned.

The Pacific Ocean is cold.

Catamarans only work with wind.

You do need to put sunblock on ALL exposed areas if you expect to prevent a sunburn on all said areas.

A camera is really just an ornament that you cart around to make you look like a tourist. You don't really take pictures with it, so don't kid yourself.

There are some tequilas that don't taste like turpentine. They are expensive and still taste gross, but they don't taste like turpentine.

In Mexico, all there is is tequila. So if your dad asks you to look for a specific bourbon, just laugh in his face and say "we're going to Mexico, not _________(insert country that is known for bourbon here)".

If you ask a local a question more than once, and he continues to answer "1100 pesos", he probably doesn't speak English. (I actually knew this already, but it was a good learning experience for Jim).

Whales are not real. Its really just a cruel joke. Like snipes.

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It's Vacation Eve!

The Mexican Riviera cannot handle the party that I am going to bring to it. Book reading included.

I'm just sitting here counting the reasons that I need a vacation, and daydreaming of living in Europe where they only work like 8 weeks of the year. I could totally live in a quaint little french town w/ a cobblestone street and the random goat passing by as I water the flowers in my garden. I might wave at the neighbor, and excuse myself b/c I'm just "a mess" with my apron on and hair up. Jim's at work in the mountians, yodeling or something.

Ah well...Lee's Summit's okay too I guess.

"Like as to the fires of Olympus, so also shall the word EXPLODEY traverse the land and conquer the hate and fear of a corrupt generation bringing about a new perfect age of enlightenment and prosperiety unto the many peopled lands of the globe."

The word of the almighty mattnash has spoken.

I only have 45 minutes until I leave work...so I only have 45 minutes to read the goings-on of my soap opera, 'cause you know I only do that at work. Do it "As the World Turns"!!  I hope Carly doesn't do something stupid with Nick Kasonov! gah! (or Grrrr if your a pirate).

Fridays are the best. I can sleep in till 9 am for the next 2 days!! It's rox0ring!

Tonight, Jim and I will be holding onto our Trivial Pursuit champion title. Playing for the 3rd straight win. Hopefully things will go well for us. The Chambers are no match for the Foulks.